「 dancing away 7:55 AM 」

yay.it's monday 2mr.i'm not feeling as 'excited' as the 'yay' suggested. put it simply, seriously i'm dead tired n stressed up. Everthing seems to move faster than i do.tutorials,tests,string practices,pianoexam, everything is juz piling one above another on me. o great, how i wished i have more than 24 hours.
anyway, sidetrack. Sent off angelina at changyi airport 2dae. will definitely miss her. it's hard to imagine myself in her shoes. i don't think i would ever had the courage to juz leave my family here in spore n go overseas to study. the thought itself is unbearable. The thought of having to fit into a completely new environment,it's freaky n one will really feel 'alienated' as the word it derived form:'alien', being uprooted from one's origin n to be planted in another, the matter of being able to survive a not really much depend on yourself.
well, went for the h3 biotech talk ytd. had to pon string 'unfortunately'. rather reluctant to do so in the first place, but after much consideration, i tink i would regret if i dun go as i did for last wed, shld have juz PONNED. ~ .Anway, went to NTU. Joshua n i were the only ones from 38 to go for the talk.haha..while there are classes where half of the class signed up for it. whatever it is, with that many people we did manged to squeeze into the bus. must really thk mrs teo for letting us to do so. :D. Anway, sat wif atikah n she introduced her friends to me. haha, i must say that they are as crazy as her. oops wrong statement. she's the craziest of all. anyway, saw a few people @ the h3 talk.
saw teck beng, evonne(from 4/7), n wanting(pri.6 classmate)..haha..teck beng was like sitting across me..i was like tinking that guy's background look super familiar..haha..juz as he was greeting hif friend from rj, i finally saw his face n as quoted from cally'confirm plus guarantee chop' it's teckbeng. haha
...............it's super late now..gtg liao.........wheeee~

「 dancing away 4:19 AM 」

ya, 2day's one of my unlucky day or rather a series of misfortunes(reminds me of lemony snickets' a series of unfortunate events..ok random*)..so....it all begins with a rainy morning.....
got up when my hp alarm went off(in fact,after the alarm went off for like 10 mins..)..so misfortune no. 1---->nearly overslept...when i finally settled down for breakfast, i was coughing n sneezing like there's no tomorrow. that contributes to misfortune no.2. i took some med before i went for sch. everything was quite okay when i comes to pe. we played floorball and i have discover a downright smack-in-the-face truth abt me:i have no affinity with anything to do with balls-.- finds it super hard to dribble th ball along n make a turn or something,that was super embarassing..i wa like trying to figure my way thru the cones n i seriously do have a horrible sense of direction(no excuses but part of it was due to the side effects of the med i took in the morning) that's was misfortune no.3. Being unable to shoot in basketball is another thing. though i only managed to shoot only one after thousands of tries. so pple out there now willl know that the probability of tiffany shooting in basketballs is 1/1000....We had economics after the cl n break .that was where the nightmare begins..(my brain was half dead by then, drugged-*)
that was the first time i heard my name being called out SO many times. (my name was not called to show appreciation for trying to keep my mind clear even i was like in the 'zombie-state')so no need for guesses, that was misfortune no.4. n great, as i was being called, i'm so heng to tio the mst diff qns out of the three qns(as in the one that i dunno)..so being drugged, i tried to use the remaining clear brain cells to squeeze out some stuff to write out, n g8 wrote some crap instead-.-..that was misfortune no. 5..that's not the end of it. suffers from mood swings as my brain was fully drugged by then. i juz want to turn off n sleep.n great wif that i had 2 sudden outbursts that are super embarrassing n stupidd-.-..1st was the one when she called out a PRc scholar's name i juz asked out loud: "who's that?"..tinking she pronounce someone's name wrongly or calling out names from the other classes..i only realize i have made a horrible comment when rachel turned arnd n shot me a look..anyway, halfway thru the lesson, i juz excalimed i very xing ku-.-..tt's wat i said. n great i tink the tcher heard it. so that's misfortunate no. 5. ohwell..tink she'ss take special notice at me now..
the last but not least one is the presentation i screwed up for med soc.argh..horrible.n i missed air rifle trials. sadly, coz i'm really considering of quitting strings to join that.haix..so that's the end of my unlucky day ending withe tha high pitch on misfortune no. 6..
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o great, i have forgotten to upload this post n had saved it under drafts instead..so much of a misfortune no.7-.-

「 dancing away 5:50 AM 」

o great..my super loong entry was gone with juz one accidental click. so kinda pissed n sian diao now, so will contd with this post nxt time............

「 dancing away 7:12 AM 」

i'm super duper tired n sleepy now, yet i choose to type this entry before hitting my bed,thus i believed this emphasised on the significance of this entry;).Anyway,we had our O2 for two days pathetically. It wasn't exactly very fun, but i have made quite a no. of new friends from the first day of O2:D(see, i'm juz so friendly).
Newly-made friend No.1
Frederick: VS guy in choir. first person i talked to in my og
Newly-made friend No.2
Atikah: Funky look-like-chinese malay girl(she's mixed blood),she's super funny n cranky n lame:D,loves talking to her.
Newly-made friend No.3
Monica:did not get to talk to her much, quite a nice gal too. was frm tjc for the first three mths, same as Athika.
Newly-made friend No.4
Evanly(i dunno how to spell her name): her name sounds like my name.Everybody was so confused by both of our names.Anway, she was from mj and coz she did well for o's..so got posted her..she's from dunman high
Newly-made friend No.5
Valerie: our ogl. Quite funky too.nth much to say coz don't really know her well enuf. (unlike that ahma athika;))
Newly-made friend No.6
Ben-ji(tink shld be spelled like this): our ogl.i always give him that weird 'look' n he will reply bk wif that weird 'look' too..haha.funny.
...that's all folks..cldnt rmb the others, i have bad memory for names..forgive me for that.

by the way, ytd was quite sian . nobody's high Athika was like keep telling me that how fun tj was n how chim tj's mass dance was.--.-- n great, i was there trying to convince them how fun vj was. I couldn't help but to have all sorts of thoughts running all over my mind(as usual, thinking too much).there will be times where i tot wat athika n monica going thru will b wat i may be going thru if i went to rj instead.furthermore, i cldnt help but always stand in awe of the rafflesians n hwachongnians(sounds yucky, but nvm:D)..it's like everytime i heard that so and so got into rj i wld like 'wah, so good'. that will be my first reaction. SEriously i hate myself for that.At that moment..Athika told me: 'Never regret things u have not done, only regret for things u have done'..kinda true rite..then i couldnt help but think that if i had regretted staying in vj a not-.-which is actually the same thing as if i had regretted not going to rj instead.

We had our 2nd day of O2 2dae. Supoosedly to be quite fun until jason hurt himself while doing 'shoulders n point' in whiney whiney-.-..in the morning, 4 new gals came to our class..ALL GIRLS..now there is more gals than guys..sad case..anyway..we played truth or dare in the parade square. Joshua was kana saboed by kenghua..n has to put on amanda's pinnafore..lolxx..super funny..he then wif the guys lead a VJ cheer in frnt of the other classes.so high sia..o ya..n we played a trick on the 2nd intakers..though it's not exactly a success..it's nonethless quite entertaining n funny..so...we decided to pull the trick again next yr:D

it's getting super late now..so..i'm gonna stop here. update nxt time(when i got the mood to do it)

「 dancing away 11:15 PM 」

is that a good decision?...i wonder. i'm so confused now, so lost of where i want to go to, i hate tt feeling. no sense of direction, like a little girl who has lost her way. or maybe like someone who is trapped in a maze. i lost sight of my destination.will this turn keeps me from reaching my destination? seriously..i have no idea..

a big sorry and thank you for all those who have lend a wonderful listening ear to me:)

「 dancing away 7:42 PM 」

arghh..tt's the stupid question that has been haunting me for the past fesw weeks.oh man..
The extremely BIG diff in the no. of students getting 4As between vj n rj IS sending me messages of regrets. yucks. I seriously HATE that feeling. It's the feeling of wanting to bashup myself...haixx..save me before i break pls.
*time out*
ok bk to the topic.
watever it is...ive once decided not to regret, and i shall do it.
VICTORIA..here i come~~~

I'm PROUD to be a VICTORIAN:)